i found your fingerprints
on a glass of wine
do you know youre leaving them
all over this heart of mine too
but if i never take this leap of faith
ill never know

i bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
theres a mark you leave
like a loveheart carved on a tree
i bruise easily
cant scratch the surface
without moving me underneath

anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal you
anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave you

for whatever reason.

preferential passion.

passion for life or,
passion for life?

von koh|12:51 AM|

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

new addiction.

here are some others that i did this wee morning!
i think its better to use adobe photoshop. the first one
was done using scrapbook flair,but the designs were
limited.

now,scrapbooking is my new addiction. i like. (:


my favourite bitchlove.


love is niap.



its christmas people.
be blessed all. (:

von koh|6:51 AM|

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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

no patience, no virtue?

when you are feeling all so fucked up inside and feel like
screaming out on top of your voice,do something exceptionally
boring to cultivate some patience then.

i dont know how many times have i cursed and swear for
the whole of yesterday. even till now i still feel that irritatedness.

dont mean to be nasty but if ever someone were to grow old
fucking alone with no one by *** side,I KNOW WHY! the extent
of ridiculousness is beyond anybodys comprehensiveness! na bei.

ive been trying to pick up scrapbooking but i have no time for
it,since material stuff i cant do it. i do digital. i suck at it but heres
my first attempt. (the rest of the time was spent downloading new
embellishments and kits.)



von need more comedies. i want to watch paul blart, mall cop!

wat lau eh. still feeling shitty inside. chee bye kia,make life difficult
for people only.

von koh|7:57 AM|

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Sunday, December 21, 2008

where time cant be chased.

great,the whole weekend was simply knocked out,only
slept at 4-5am and im seriously halfdead. not even in the
mood to read up my emails. ): so many of them to finish. ):

yesterday was mahjong day BUT,i only managed to sleep
about 5am on friday night and woke up at 9am or so.
i wanna mahjong someday soon can? )): one more gratifying
session. (:
and i think,i seriously need to change the genre of my music collection.

dinner at lailai beef noodles place over at bugis;


i hate intestines but they love. but tofus my only favourite la.
and teresa best la,starbucks in town and she actually can look at you,slowly
have her eyes shut and fall asleep,very immediately. woah,im seriously darn
impressed!


joyce,babybangbang! hahs! signboard done for you okay.


we were all very mentally tired and physically awake.

after that i went you bar for some drinks. and talking about drinks,think my
body is beginning to reject alcohol. the night before yesterday,drank not even
1/4 of what i used to drink. got home not drunk,not high,no hangover; yet i
woke up the next morning to vomit la. ): seems like alcohol is no longer a
depressant for me,its intoxicating me.

so,here i have some photos taken from my personal photo album thats hiding
at one corner of my room. life was so carefree,BACK THEN.


we were all 14 years old only la. (okay,i know its very ugly. i was a nerd
okay. (: )


our lives were so fun right,running on sand,play in waters and
basking under the sun,in BIG GROUP. yea,attentions whores. (x


left with jia lin and right with sherlyn. this shows how free we were in
secondary school,we had tons of photos taken back then. but ive forgotten
where did i save all the soft copies. ):


abbey and i with the zhengs,ping and ang. (:
i miss those days,running around the class/school. personal tables. forcing
jina to do homework and clear her messy table. hiding undone assignments.
breaking school rules and regulations. ran away from principal's chasing.
no more rules to break now,so borrring!


aiyo,look at us. those days.
bloody hell,stupid jina changed name to what keidi. dont act class okay.
once a jina,always one! (: i love them to bits and cracks. ((:


birthday parties were always so crowded la. (i have this photo of at least 20
plus people.but photo too cramp.)


my kikki looked so youthful right. i love that shirt i bought for her but dont
know where did mummy hide it la. she looked as though shes golfing. (:


and we turned her into a rabbit when festive season come. ((:
aiyo,cant deny that shes not the cutest one around.

i shall end off the entry with a photo of;


the other two koh bitches and me! (:
my eldest sister was very shagged when this photo was taken
and she was about to sleep when i forced her to take photo
with kikki. (: ginny as usual,vain. and myself,primary one only la.

von koh|8:12 PM|

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Friday, December 19, 2008

quizzical.

i dont even comb my hair
when i wake up in the morning
ive always been like that
my clothes are on the floor
and i just dont have the time to put them back

is this what you truly want for a girlfriend?
or am i just someone you find pretty cute for a good time?
dont go breaking my heart
i think very deeply and i hold very dearly from the start
so why do you still love me?

im so useless in the kitchen
and my cuisine is lousy
it makes you want to curl
my toes are awfully huge
and i am not just the stuff that makes a girl

i dont even call you baby
'cause thats what i call my dog
it would have sounded funny and so strange
dont expect me to be crawling over you
for maybe i am just a poor unromantic

pardon me,but im quizzical.





;its awful to be missing.

von koh|4:55 AM|

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Thursday, December 18, 2008

emology, indeed an unhealthy subject.

for the past one week (ever since zoukout), havent really
been myself. disappeared from almost anybody and
everybody, except from my family of course. phone's silent
all of the time, smses unread.

and just this afternoon that i decided to pick up some calls.
all of them was like 'MIA' eh. but i dont wish to have them
probe further, so i hurriedly finish the conversations. okay,i
didnt pick up my boss call. so right now im comtemplating if
i should go office tomorrow.

not even sure why am i feeling all the emoness. and its darn
bad when im feeling this way because i totally dont do anything
at all! and no,im not out of love la.

i couldnt process any argumentation thats going through my
mind right now, and even for the past few days. let alone
rationalising.

anyway, i decided to post some pictures after so much words
thats flooding my blog. zoukout was pretty fun though. ginny
was there as well but didnt manage to take photos with her.
(that night she seems more bad mood than i do.) friends,lets
zoukout next year.

my sister should appreciate that i am around the parties she goes.
whenever the boyfriend get drunk,i am still there right sober to
entertain. (in fact, im always very well-behaved with them around.)

meet george. forever his handphone low batts, and so is his camera.

okay, ive forgotten her name. very very bad memory,i was extremely sober la.

thats mae and george. apologies for the blurry image.

mae and i. she bloody hell darn lian okay,darn entertaining and

vulgar, i like. (:

mae and dave. got any more blessed?

the rest of the photos taken that night are with george,still waiting for it la.

now,gotta work on that little space on my mind because time always outrun

me. im getting very unorganised as i grow older. bad.

von koh|8:03 PM|

i wanna fuck you.

1. Put your iTunes/Naptster/Mp3Player/Etc on shuffle.
2. For each question,press the next button to get the answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER
HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

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The list of songs from my Favourites as updated. (:


If someone says 'Is this okay?', you say?
SOS (Rescue Me) - Rihanna

What would best describe your personality?
Bent - Don Richmond

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Womanizer - Britney Spears

How do you feel today?
Heaven (Candlelight Mix) - DJ Sammy

What is your life's purpose?
Promiscuous Girl - Nelly Furtado ft. Timbaland

What is your motto?
In The End - Kat De Luna

What do your friends think of you?
So In Love With Two - Mikaila

What do you think of your parents?
We Ride - Rihanna

What do you think about very often?
Gallery - Mario Vazquez

What is 2+2?
Last Kiss - Mariah Carey

What do you think of your best friend?
I Stay In Love - Mariah Carey

What do you think of the person you like?
Just Want You To Know - Backstreet Boys

What is your life story?
I Go Crazy - D.H.T

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Happy Together - K Young

What do you think of the person you like?
Photograph - Nickleback

What is your life story?
Take A Bow - Rihanna

What do you want to be when you grow up?
If I Were A Boy - Beyonce

What do you think when you see the person you like?
I Don't Wanna Know - Mario Winans Ft. P.Diddy

What do your parents think of you?
When You Gonna (Give It Up To Me) - Sean Paul Ft. Keyshia Cole

What do your friends think of you?
Never Let You Go - Pretty Ricky

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Dreams - Diana DeGarmo

What will they play at your funeral?
Entourage - Omarion

What is your hobby/interest?
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

What do you think of your friends?
Rah Rah - Elephant Man ft. Daddy Yankee & Pitbull

What's the worst thing that could happen?
Check On It - Beyonce

How will you die?
Rehab - Rihanna

What is the one thing you regret?
Black Black Heart - David Usher

What makes you laugh?
No Air - Jordin Sparks

What makes you cry?
Hush - LL Cool J

Will you ever get married?
Only You - Ashanti

What scares you the most?
Run The Show - Kat DeLuna w. Busta Rhymes

Does anyone like you?
No Hay Igual - Nelly Furtado ft. Calle 13

If you could go back in time, what would you change?
One - Mary J Blige Ft. U2

What hurts right now?
If Only Tears Could Bring You Back - Midnight Sons

What will you post this title as?
I Wanna Fuck You - Akon Ft. Snoop Dogg


wat lau eh,some of the titles a bit wrong can. especially my title!

von koh|2:22 PM|

turn back the hands of time...

if only god will turn back the hands of time,
but make the people i have now stay.
minus the troublemakers of my life.
give me a little bit more wisdom; make my
eyes and ears sharper.



and dear god replied,
"live with it child."

von koh|4:13 AM|

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

count blessings.

why should we even count our blessings?
because there are far more misfortunes out there.

to start counting,
one. NIL.
(or at least im still alive? i wish i could just die in my sleep.)

and im feeling more shitty than ever that i just feel
like running away to a faraway place and disappear
right from this very moment.

okay,i know,im taking things too hard. ):

von koh|11:20 PM|

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Friday, December 12, 2008

enjoy 8 trades at S$1 commission per trade.

okay,i know im in insurance line. but this post is for those
who are interested with shares trading.

since ive just opened an account and thought there are some
of you who might be keen,from now till 31st December 2008,
per trade executed only at S$1,but only up to 8 transactions;
for online SGX trades. its definitely better than nothing,because
usually its S$25,like why not?

so if you wanna know more,go to www.cimbinvest.com. (:

von koh|11:03 AM|

tarots, in the midst.

guess i needa go for taroting lessons if i really

wanna learn la. been doing lots of references but

it doesnt look good huh.

anyway,one was darn true.

the house of the card is social and romatic interests.

ive got the Five of Swords. it is a very unpleasant card

to have in readings as it is an indication that i am or will soon

be the forcus of unwanted and perhaps unwarranted attention.

darn true okay,because it means there may be rumours and

petty jealousies around me and theres nothing i can say or do

that will convince others that they are wrong. )):

but its okay,von is used to being misunderstood. hahs. (:

i cant believe, most of the songs are always na na na. which jina

always say the songs are calling out for her.

im into womaniser. (:

its been so long
that i havent seen your face
im trying to be strong
but the strength i have is washing away
wont be long,before i get you by my side
and just hold you,tease you,squeeze you
tell you whats been on my mind

i cant lie
watching everyday that goes by
till i get you back im gonna try
cause you are the apple in my eye

i want you to fly with me
i miss how you lie with me
i wish you could dine with me
that one that will grind with me

i wanna make up right na na na
wish we never broke up right na na na
we need to link up right na na na

von koh|5:58 AM|

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

live with horrid secrets, die with regrets.

wanted to lock my blog but i have no idea how to do it.
since i needa do some rantings first, i shall blog this
entry before i consult jina how i should go about doing it.

despite the fact i wanna express those thoughts that
running non stop in mind, cant seem to so called pen them
down.

should i admit that i havent been my usual self. great,von
simply hate to admit that she have somehow bewildered herself.
no point lying or living in denial.
yea,or should i just go on with that bigHELLO with every
faces i see,even with the likes and dislikes. such a chore yet
a routine.

in our daily lives, we meet all sort of people. they always
say in our line, we will see more. 50-50 la huh. how much do
we know about one another. and how much tolerance do we have
for others.

secret negotiations; things one hide, matters that people doesnt
bother, issues that are being layered up. what about open secrets.

(my entry wont tally because i feel like sleeping but i just cant
get to sleep!)

live with horrid secrets, taking pains for no leakage. acting
ignorant to each and everything you have known. die with regrets,
for not being able to have those issues being seen with lights.

learn from the world.

von koh|4:41 AM|

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Friday, December 05, 2008

such a mess.

how to clear?! 


been trying hard to clear those piles of papers,

but its like a never-ending thing to do la. 



this is the 6th time im clearing it. only managed to

clear and file my personal mails.



though weekend is finally here,i dont have a complete

day of my own. ):

von koh|2:28 AM|

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Thursday, December 04, 2008

fat bastards.

www.fatbastardwine.com



wine for the bastards! (:

von koh|12:00 AM|

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Tuesday, December 02, 2008

i wish i could have done my rantings here.

oh well. let me see.
i didnt get to sleep for the whole of sunday night and
end up washing up as early as 5.30 a.m. in the morning
to get ready to head down to alexandra office. darn far la!

good thing is expressways these days are more convenient,
and so have they made ERPs very convenient for the cashcards!

i shall just skip my encounter with this not-so-sane agent in office
because i havent seen him since the very last time my colleagues
made him a joke after they heard what had happened. you guys
prolly have not met anybody as strange as him.
mp3 background, police force logo.
handphone background, police force logo.
MMS i received in my mobile, bloody police force logo again!
wat lau. i shun when i spot anybody who looks like police force logo
lover. ( just dont wanna make my entry look too lengthy.)

anyway, was checking out websites such as the gutter post.
http://thegutterpost.blogspot.com/
its like the more fame you get and the more happening life gets,
you get so very screwed inside out and everywhere.

oh oh, and for monday (yesterday? since ive slept.) it was such a
hectic day yet, motivational? like so finally i get out of my slumps
of emoslides.
I wanna reach new heights!

ive been looking forward to my weekends these days! ((:

cant wait for year end party to greet my new year ahead.

von koh|6:12 AM|

bbq-ing at big boss' place.

everybody were so high on wine and they

aint so much of a camLOVER like me.





anyway,most of them were high high up

dancing on the moon already.



thank god i left early,i left heading off for second

round elsewhere,and feeling high in the car.

bloody hell,my district seriously have hell lots

of drunkards. it was FUNSfilled though. (:



gotta catch more sleep to continue for the new year! ((:



mobile blogging is bad. i almost forgot to talk about

the picture i posted. li lins baby,only 15 months.

dupers cute can. she fake cry so i could return her to mummy.

i almost kidnapped her.

von koh|4:07 AM|

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